I feel good

I feel good… I feel nice… Just imagine me dancing on James Brown in my living room in my pyjamas…
 


Few months ago, I didn’t think I’d be able to be in that state of mind, being able to say « yes, i’m doing good”. Coming back from Montreal was really hard for me: it was as if I came back to starting point, as if I lived a dream and I woke up suddenly, realizing that I’ve been the only one dreaming. It was really hard for me to be disconnected from Montreal: I could have told my life with a million of details, I was still the only one who lived there and nobody could be on the same wavelength. I was feeling pretty bad, the only thing I wanted was to go back to Montreal, Geneva sucked, I was wondering how I would survive, I was already imagining myself being depressed all the time. I had changed and I wanted to do a revolution around me but it was killing me that nothing was happening. My life in Montreal was like a roller coaster and life was so boring in Geneva.


But God promised that He would make a pathway through the wilderness and create rivers in the dry wasteland (Isaiah 43: 18-19). Honestly, back then, I couldn’t imagine how it would be possible… But in retrospect, after a wonderful evening with my family, I have tears in my eyes just thinking how God kept his promise, so much more that I imagined. A piece of my Canadian happiness is sharing my Swiss happiness, viva Internet that makes me feel as if my Canadian treasures are just beside me, my heart is learning a new language.

Then yes, the desire to go back to Montreal is still there, more than ever, I won’t hide it. But I look differently at things: I enjoy this year, loving and being loved by my family and friends. Setting up a piece of the puzzle before going back to the cold country.

A lot of good things are happening : there’s gonna be some dancing in 2 weeks; in 3 months, I’m gonna freeze (but my heart will be warm) in the caribous’ country; in less than a month, we’re gonna ski and I’m graduating soon!!!! Add to this, an awesome family (even though sometimes Marie’s wondering what king of crazy animals we are), awesome friends. Snow is the only thing missing to my happiness.